"She gives bits and pieces of herself, I break myself open and pour the contents on her shelf"

So. Today is father's day. It's also my 8 (or 7, or 9th? I told you I stop counting at 6) month anniversary. I know, silly silly for me to make a big deal out of it...but SOMEONE likes to count, and that someone I happen to love. So..as a gift, I completed a song I wrote for you and decided to publish it for the global world to see...and you too. Love you rhubarb, this one's for you. Happy anniversary. 

Antithesis To Melodramatic Romanticism

What do you think of me

I ruin everything

you say the sweetest things

but I dont recall a single thing.

I'm the antithesis

to your romantic bliss

how do you deal with this

am I really that lovely?

oh no

I said it again

" I miss the days when we were just friends"

and you

you died inside a bit

I know even if I didnt see it

now I've got to appologize

tears swelling in your eyes

carefully organize

backspace backspace

no that's not what I mean

you're the only one for me

this is getting so routine

how do we keep up?

what do you think of me?

I ruin everything

you say the sweetest thing

but I don't recall a single thing

I'm the antithesis

to your romantic bliss

how do you deal with this

am I really just that lovely?

dear god

I'm calling again

it sounds so good

inside of my head

and you

you answer with glee

hoping this time

that I wont be mean

I hate to disappoint again

why do I offend?

I'm hoping that you understand

but you don't 

you don't

cus you're not in my head

I'm wishing i was dead

let's make love instead

take the easy way out

What do you think of me?

I ruin everything

you say the sweetest things

but I don't recall a single thing

I'm the antithesis

to your romantic bliss

how do you deal with this

am I really just that lovely?

now we're

standing face to face

my head in your hands

my arms on your waste

and you

so ginger and sweet

smile with love

and kiss both my cheeks

then I whisper the perfect thing

your heart beats and your ears ring

this is so lovely

I win, I win

but as soon as the moment ends

I'm ignoring and texting friends

I dont realize you're still there

next time just grab me and say

"What are you thinking?

you're ruining everything

stop running away from me

cus I can be your anything

don't be afraid of this

just give me a kiss

because i promise

I truly think you're that lovely."

There. xoxox- me

*yes this is copyrighted. Steal it and I'll hunt you down bitches.